Sunday, September 16, 2007

Deliverance

The other week at church, a wise gentleman approached me and said he felt God wanted him to tell me something. This started my tears flowing as I'd been feeling very "raw" emotionally and wondered if God cared about anything that had happened to me/us this year. He reminded me that in Psalm 139 it says Gods knows everything about me...when I sit, when I stand, what my thoughts are. I can't go anywhere where God is not. In the darkest, deepest pit, He's there with me.

This gentleman also reminded me that God doesn't just deliver us from something, but often delivers us to somewhere. And sometimes it just doesn't make sense. He delivered the Israelites out of Egypt, but took them to a place with bitter water, and a place with no water, etc. The Promised Land was the final destination, but there were places along the way that had to be passed through first.

I guess I feel like I'm in one of those in-between places. I'm not where I was, but I sure hope this isn't the final destination. I want to understand the "why" of it all, but I'm not promised that. I need to trust that God knows best and loves me so much that He only does what is best for me.

Nice While It Lasted

Got back from the beach yesterday. It was so nice to be away from here and all the "stuff" that goes along with our life as of late. No bills, no dogs, no phone. I know God is smart, but the whole ocean/sand/breeze combination thing is genius. We stayed at a pretty nice place and got to spend lots of time at the pool and beach. I even managed to survive 7 days without internet access. Egad! Came home to bills, dogs, phone...Thank you, God, for letting us go on vacation. We needed it!